"Words. They Fail Me."

So many words. So very many stories. So many good things to share. And yet, I don't know quite what to say. I feel as though that is how I always begin my blogs, with a lack and overabundance of words. It makes me think of my dear friend Jody, who always says, "Words. They fail me." I never understand that saying, so much as I do when I begin a blog.

I suppose I should begin with one of the most exciting things and that is, I have my camera! A couple of weeks ago, my little sister Tabitha came for a visit and the very first day of her time here, we made a family trip down to Sears and I handed over quite a chunk of cash to a very happy salesman and walked out with the camera I've been dreaming about for MONTHS. Tabitha and I immediately set to work, practicing with the camera and capturing the marvelous addition on film, so to speak. One such photo is the one here, of me and Chuck, my new love. There is only one "man" for me currently. We are quite close, he and I. Tomorrow, I'm taking my two oldest nieces down to East Lansing and they are going to be my models. I'm rather excited!

This summer has been full and will continue to be so. It's been work and visits, right and left. My sainted boss has quite marvelously put up with these trips I have (mostly for family things) and I'm so blessed in that. This summer has seen me in Virginia, my little sister here and will see me in Idaho and Kansas City.



These are all from the trip to Virginia with mom, my sister and the kiddos. :)















In the last month or so, I've found myself struggling. Coming home from such a spiritual high is hard enough, but coming home to very few friends and no church home, just proliferated things. I know with my head, why it is I came back to the states and back here specifically, however, that doesn't always stop the struggle. I've had moments of feeling useless and alone. But God has spoken quite clearly, that even if nothing is "accomplished" here in this time, by my obedience, I have made Him happy, which is all that I need. Hey, I'm certainly not perfect, but I'm learning. ;)

I did not intend for this to be such a book, but I guess that's what happens when I neglect to post for such a long time. Let me leave you with a thought that's been brewing in my head for the last couple of days. Humbleness is not an overinflated ego, but neither is it a lower than dirt self-concept. Humbleness is knowing who you truly are and accepting that, flaws, as well as good. It is seeing you as God sees you. :)